Worlds Apart

Remember my first blog called 'Blue' abt a guy that I couldnt get over?
..well he just told me something epic, something that stopped my heart from beating for a slight second
He told me that he's gone and will still be for a very long time; at this moment I can feel my heart crying
It feels like Ive been cut, real deep..

Was this not wat I asked for?..something or someone to show me how to move on !!
Right now, Im thinking that this is unfair as this separation feels like worlds apart buh then I realise that this is what I asked for.. buh do you knw how much this hurts me?

I know that this or these are signs telling me to move on, buh this, this hurts so much! How can I move on?!
..I knw Im not the one who's in the most pain and is definitely not the only one in pain, buh.. this hurts

`CHEEEERS to that last hour of fun

LIST OF THINGS I DID TODAY

• Went to catch up with a friend that just got back from overseas
  

-We.. well more like I, talked for almost two hours

• Went to town to find something for this guy's birthday and something for my sister birthday
• When I got home, I got bored and started playing with make-up

-I'm sure that I used about half a bottle of that massive hair spray on my head and loads of eye-liner

• I camwhored around the house with the posing idea of depressed yet hot

-The lighting of different places inside the house gave my pictures a very unique effect

• When I got to Sandy's, I was still hypo.. I kept laughing about bringing her my DVDs instead of CDs

-Then, with so much glee, I collapsed on the bed hitting my head against Anh's handbag which was like rock solid.. Ouch >< -Later found out that she had a giant bottle of Smirnoff in it

• I went downstairs and was unfortunately, still hypo.. I shared hugs and began laughing for no apparent reason until tears came out.. What the hell was wrong with me?

• We went outside and played thirteen and I thought the dog got to me or something and squealed

-After shock came laughter and tears of joy

• After more people came, and a few more laughs, I began going quiet and tired..

-Some thought I was depressed, I thought that I was just a little down and needed a drink to knock me back up XD

• After a long period of eating and jokes out came the twister

• It wasnt long till we started playing thirteen.. we didnt get past two games because of so much chatter

-There were only girls playing and when Anh moved out of the circle the dog attacked me.. well it did lick me [I screamed several times tonight]

-Like a crab, i scrambled backwards and knocked Xuan's drink over
-The second time the dog attacked me I ran from it [on two legs], I ran around the circle and knocked over Mel's drink

• It was around 9.00pm when we brought out the drinks, set up a table and began playing spoons

-Some were so desperate for a drink, they lost on purpose, I lost once and I was fighting over that last spoon with Michael
-I didnt take my shot until the next round, Xuan said to take a photo.. afterall, it is my first drink ever ^^ [the jelly vodka did not count]
-The vodka jelly tasted like plain jelly, My first drink was a rasberry Smirnoff I think it was.. yummy buh the burning sensation was so unsual

• No one was drunk yet and they even brought out this drink mixed with milk; I tried it after a while, It tasted like sugary chocolate milk

-Since no one was drunk yet, everyone took a shotty each
.. altogether that night I only had a few sips of that milk drink (I dont know how many people drank from that cup) and two shottys
.. Here's to an Epic night of camwhoring, drinks, friends, laughter and tears of joy ~CHEEEERS! ^^ *drops down on bed*

To like or Not to like

I thought about this for a whole day and resulted with:
he deserves a chance as long as I can see that he really, honestly likes me.
Pro:
• He’s both taller & older than me
• He's funny
• I could tell that he liked me because the second time I met him, I noticed that he wanted to talk to me but was too shy to
I decided that I will give him a chance because there's many things I like about him; funny, shy [which makes him cute]. A bit later, I went online to see what he would say to me since he added me on Facebook and I said Hello.. What he said to me was equal to nothingness --' At that moment I thought that my intuition was wrong.

When I went online the next day, it was not long until he was logged on too. He started IM-ing me from FB. He started the convo with 'well hello there' which I thought was pretty cute ^^

After we connected on MSN, we talked for like Ever. Gradually I got bored like I always do.. my boredom tends to be contagious. Soon I realized that life long story I told him must have been so boring that he must have wanted to shoot himself.. soo I kinda apologized for being contagious [of boredom] and logged off to prevent further embarrassment.

It was like 2 seconds later that he IM-ed me on FB and told me that he was only joking..Its so cute how he thought that I was upset. I was only feeling guilty for boring him half to death.

I told a friend that I was boring him to death and she copied over some text from their convo to me. There was stuff like 'she's not boring me'..Im so glad I found that out.
Apparently, He also thinks Im pretty and would be stolen away before he gets a chance. I keep thinking about this..

My adorable friend actually made me promise that I would give him a chance and that I would be less picky