Nobody can predict what happens to them in life buh with a strong mind for self control, yu can choose how to react. Reactions, in general, is the key to manipulation. 

I got knocked down. For days I laid there, bleeding. Buh eventually, I got up again. 
Im not gona stay down jst because someone decided to push me over. Im not a kid anymore.

I was listening to an old song, "Break Your Heart"
..and then I thought: I can really relate :/
Im definitely, 'not easy to please' and I'll end up breaking yur heart. Definitely.

So please, listen to this song a hundred times before yu even think of liking me.
Im not gona be sorry for not liking yu back.
Relationships shudnt be built on guilt, pity or hatred.
I knw this is completely mean, buh its a warning.
I'd challenge anyone to try and break my heart.
Buh then again, yu're probably not important enough.

LEVERAGE

Some ppl shud LISTEN as much as they TALK.


Without a brain, yu're jst a pretty face. Without a pretty face, yu're jst a brain.
SO WHO THE FCUK CARES ABT YU IF YU ONLY HAVE ONE OR THE OTHER? NO BODY.


Im average at everything and pro at nothing.
The ppl that I admire because theyre able to succeed, they're not average.
I'm HEAPS jealous of what theyre able to achieve buh I chose to be average.


TALL. SHORT. FAT. BONEY. SMART. DUMB. HAPPY. SAD. PRETTY. UGLY. AGGRESSIVE. KIND. PERSISTENT. LAZY. BRAVE. SCARED.


So the deal with this is when I desire more than the average of one thing, Karma gets back at me with another.
Maybe its jst in my over-thought head, buh I feel like this is real.
I do get greedy. I sometimes ask for more than I deserve. Then Karma happens.

So they say, "Age is mind over matter.." 

buh Im saying, I do mind so it does matter. So sorry.

Did I tell yu abt the guuest that hit on me when I was catering at a wedding?
..well at that moment I was like 'wat the freakkk?!' and wen he found out I was sixteen he back off.
Age is both a weapon and a weakness.
Out of the few times I went to town this holidaes, todae wud be the third time I appealed to mature men =.=
I mean, if I attracted UNI students then I wudnt mind so much buh WORKING (middle-aged) MEN.

I seriously dnt look good in my sleep. I dnt even feel comfortable.
I WANT TO SLEEP IN MY UNDERWEAR~
..whether its summer or winter, i sleep in shorts and a top buh it kindaa gets uncomfortable in the end :/

So a lot of ppl knw and loves my bed as it is VERY soft and comfy; I like it too. Buh I get these moments when I feel really comfortable laying on the floor. I think it provides security and relaxation (Y)

..and I jst dnt understand how I cant jst say I LOVE YOU to my mum. I love her so incredibly much and yet, I dnt recall ever saying those words. Its really not easy for me because its not a thing we say often buh I really love you mum <3

When ppl grow up ..reality slaps yu in the face.

Is it really that bad to give someone hope? ..I didnt think it'd lead to false hope though. I really didn't.

Jst now, I saw some old pictures of a 'friend' and I felt like crying as well. He was normal; happy, silly. Buh now, now he scares me. Its not easy to scare me.


I tried to be his friend, a real friend. Buh he kept pushing me away. I became his 'friend' in the first place because I sensed his loneliness.
I dnt want to give up on yu buh if yu play me like a fool, yu'll lose me forever.

naww at the photo!!
 Yu knw how yu eat too much junk food and then yu get a blood nose? 
Well its the same for me buh the blood nose is normally triggered by tears; happy, sad or even frm yawning LOL.


Todae I got anther blood nose and a bit of blood dripped down on my chest. 
I looked in the mirror to see where it was and for a moment, I was in awe at that sight on my skin.
That beautiful shade of red stood out so clearly on my skin.
It was so pretty. I felt hypnotized. 

Ive been tired although my life is very unproductive. Yr 12 has already spooked me.

One week left and the countdown begins.

 "Are yu okae? Did yu jst fall from heaven?"


Scenario One: "Because I think I see an angel."


Scenario Two: "Because I think yu fell on yur face."




The greater male population, maybe all, is this simple minded when seeing a girl for the first time.
Okae, so maybe they dnt say that to yur face buh yu can tell wen they think it.


Yu men are the scums of the earth.
I hate it when yu look at me. Try looking at me for a bit longer and see if I claw yur eyes out.
Such bastards, such perves. They clearly dnt use their heads to think.


Its not okae.

In the last TWO MONTHS Ive been trying to find myself and yet its only 'til now that Ive discovered the meaning of creating myself.

Well I cant tell if Im scared or not.
She plans to take me down buh could she?
I knw it sounds evil buh I might jst take her down first.
The only way I can protect myself.
I wont do anything viscious buh Im not gona jst sit there and take this shit.


Moreover, this year.. Im making them all choose. They either take sides or lose me.

Im sad. She had a go at me.
I find it pathetic when ppl cant insult me properly. 
Buh I still get sad. 
At these kind of moments, my friends ignore me.
They want to see where this goes. 
Ppl like me who have fought with so many others, knw that fights are lonely and more sad than angry.

Adorable couples belong to each other like Pen and Paper. 

I miss being a couple, buh Im still waiting, only to fall head over heels for some guy.

If yur guy, reading my blog, jst to knw me better, jst for a chance.. the guy i fall for, wont be yu.

He'll be the guy that reads my blog because he cares. Im sick of ulterior motives.

Im not pessimistic buh even compliments are said to lead to something. Ppl dnt knw how to talk to each other anymore. 

Its not what yu say, its the way yu say it.

I beg of yu to not compliment me when yu want something. Jst get straight to the point.

Love is Love. There shudnt be more to explain.

If yu question what yu call love..

 then it really isnt love at all.

A few moments ago, I was forced into telling someone my age a bedtime story. I can only think of sad stories buh then I thought, it isnt a bedtime story if there's no happy ending. You cant sleep unless theres an ending yu can settle for. Like in life, Im not satisfied with a bad ending either.

-'No way out' By this century. Hearing this makes me want to cry; is there really no way out..?