Jerks of the universe

One of the most annoying type of jerks is the type that decides everything and 'fills yu in' at the end. They ask what yu want BUH yur answer doesnt even matter.  

Its so selfish and inconsiderate.

Do yu knw how many ppl out there that does that?!! Theres at least 3 ppl that I knw of, who does that and yet I dnt say something. Yeah, thats really not like me. Buh the me now is suddenly so considerate of other ppls feelings. I fucken hate it when I dnt get to say what I think. Keeping it in is so not me. I fucken hate myself.

Cant complain

Life's been so tough lately, I cant do anything buh say watevers..

This week has been pretty messed up buh all of a sudden Im an Optimist?

I sped around town tryna look for takoyaki balls, I really wanted mum to try some, ended up going to 3 places b4 I cud find any, ran for the bus like an idiot, ended up burning myself coz the food was too hot and sauce got everywhere :(

I said to myself, at least I found the takoyaki balls, at least I didnt miss the bus, at least I didnt drop the food.. how come bein optimistic makes me wana cry so much?

I havent been able to talk to the ppl I want to as much as before

-At least I get to talk to them
My laptop crashed and I lost nearly everything

-At least I got wat I needed and didnt have to do everything again
The consistent panic attacks of the bad things that happen and lack of sleep

-At least I dnt have to pull all nighters and I have my friends there for me

The thing with M this week

-At least its over

My heart jumps everytime I think something really bad is going to happen. My instincts have been right for a some time now which scares the hell outta me.

..Buh I Dnt complain no more, Im getting use to this shit happening

Hey I almost forgot to mention.. I suddenly have this fascination for images of trees:

Here are some images I collected from my precious Deviant Art website

Photo Blogging Of 18/03/10

Missing things

Besides my girl G, who I miss so ever much that I can cry abt it everytime

..I also miss D sometimes coz I think of him like ALL the time now =.=

I havnt done hwk lately, I only make it through by being productive during class

He's messing up my life buh I dnt care.. ^^

Its so cute wen i hear 'behind the story' stuff abt him, makes me think that he's adorable ^^ ..buh it makes me miss him more xD LOOL

March 15 2010

 After Ive stressed so much over my 16th, it actually turned out not too bad; parts of it was better than I expected.

Ill tell yu wat went WRONG:

1. L forgot the controllers for the PS3 she's lending me so if we played guitar hero, no1 can sing :/

2. X forgot the guitar hero altogether.. =.= ------ > meh *shrugs

3. It was so hawt with every1 there buh then it was raining =.=' LOOL

4. H showed up and made it awkward-er for 5 minutes

5. Mum was 'hanging' around a bit too much

6. I cried after G left, miss that b so much

Things that went RIGHT:

1. D was there [I think I like him]

2. I looked not too bad

3. There were loads of yummy food

4. Didnt have to plan anything out besides the food-list, guest-list and decoration

5. At least 16 ppl showed up, all of whom I wanted there

6. Ppl i didnt want there, didnt come (Y)

7. I had fun ^^ -------- > xD

EXTRA STUUUFF:

1. I got locked out on the balcony with D [I saw N and L peeking through the windows]

-N jumped out and threw pads on the ground saying "Have Safe Sex!" LMAO =.= --- > ^^'

2. I found out todae that yesterdae, wen I cried, M told X to not comfort me sooo that D could.. :L

3. Turns out my bro was tryna 'get friendly' with my friends and he did with M(2)..I dnt wana knw wat they were up to

4. I wanted to jst sit and hug D, watch a movie or watever buh i wanted to hug him :/

5. Mum was totally watching over us wen D was sitting nxt to me watching Push

Is Change Not a Good thing?

I never thought that change was a bad thing, maybe it was because of my willingness to make lemonade wen I was given lemons. 

A friend, that is ever so close to me txtd me me yesterdae and told me that she misses OLSH and was in tears. I never knew that life was continuing to be increasingly hard for her. She's smart and pretty plus everyone adores her buh the sad thing is that fate is putting her through so many tests in life. 

Its so glaringly obvious that life is difficult for her. I alwaes thought she was able to handle it Buh she broke down last night and I really wanted to fly over there and give her a hug.

It makes me sad knwing that she's miserable. I really want to be there for her buh I dnt knw wat to do.

You will forever be my girl and I will alwaes love yu.

I will be there for yu wen yu need me because yu will alwaes be that important to me.

Dont give up. Im rooting for you S2

The 'what ifs' in life

Starting to wonder if D likes me or is jst tryna play me.

S said that he likes to talk to heaps of girls buh wen it comes to liking someone he's serious.

My instincts tell me that he does buh I tell myself that its impossible.

And thus, I havent thought abt us that way until yesterdae wen he half admitted it.

Im confused and cannot stop thinking abt 'What ifs'

I still dnt like it how hes younger than me, coz that makes me think of lil D in primary skwl

..i never gave him a chance even though he full on confessed to my friends who told me

I felt hell guilty buh at that time I had Z and lil D was jst a very close friend

Buh I think if i get to REALLLY like D, then maybe I won't care so much abt 4 month difference

Athletics (N)

Well we didnt win buh it didnt annoy me too much coz i tried to have fun by camwhoring

..I used 4 different cams and coz i was so dressed to impress, I looked good in nearly all of it ^^

Here are only SOME of the photos ^^ ..they all looked AWESOME