That's not true. I think ALL THE TIME.

Today I felt so fat that I actually went, “I CAN’T FIT ANY OF MY CLOTHES ANYMORE!!” LOL!

I’m unbelievable. The way that words affect me is crazy.

I hang around a variety of people who speaks differently. Some speaks in a cold tone while others speak with more than one meaning. Several speak haughtily but very few speaks simply. It’s always difficult to understand and thus I over think.

It’s stressful for my brain and my blood pressure to over think simple matters but I simply take it as something I must improve upon. Judgement from people lowers my self esteem but I’m resilient, I’ll take it as a memo to improve. So NTS: I need to lose the fat.

I’m pathetic. Twice already, I’ve talked myself out of buying my craved chocolate. I know that if I got out of the house more, I wouldn’t be this fat even if I ate a buffet twice a week. Unfortunately, I couldn’t talk myself into getting out of the house more. I feel tired all the time and insecure when I’m out. I’m scared that when I go out, I’ll create another unhappy memory. When things don’t go right, I crack. I depend on my closest friends when I break down. But it’s really too much to keep depending on them. It’s not okay. Not good for anyone. I’m just going to learn how to keep my mouth shut and my thoughts to myself.