These holidaes have made me realised more than I did the entire year.

I realised that Im pathetic; havent and still not doing anything with my life.

-I sit at home, over think and over analyse. 

Ive learned that instincts/ womens' intuition comes from indirect/subconscious analysis.

Women tend to focus on detail and hence their subconscious analysis tends to give them info (a feeling) which they dnt knw where it came from.

I realised Im confused abt who I am; Im extremely happy abt one thing b4 I sleeep and when I wake I get angry over the reason I was happy for. Whats up with that?

-Its like Im fighting with myself when I sleeep.

I think im fighting because the 12 year old me and the 16 year old me disagrees with each other.

The 12 year old me is sincere, stubborn, innocent.

The 16 year old me is someone who blends so she can fit into society.

The older me ends up winning a lot.

I realised that when I say, "I like who I am," Im in denial. When I say, "I hate myself," I laugh.

-What kinda screwed up shizz is this? Why wud I laugh when things are sad and embarrassing?